Wednesday, November 16, 2011

Oh, oh, oh, I'm on fire...

It's been four weeks since my mom's funeral. It's been three months since I last saw my dear friend who I'd come to rely on so much. I guess it's no wonder I've been in a funk. It's been hard to get out of bed but easy to climb back in. The colder and grayer the day is the more sedentary and gloomy I become. It's been common on nights that I don't work for me to have a drink and go to bed early. I know it's not normal. I know it's not healthy. I know I need to shake it off somehow before I sink too deep.

Today I got something hot in the mail. A Kindle Fire. A FREE Kindle Fire. Yeah, it pays to have relatives with connections. I've been wanting one of these since I first heard of them. And yes, it is awesome. So this afternoon I'm warming myself by my Fire and trying to think positive thoughts. And maybe I'll even read a book on it. After I play Angry Birds for a while.


  1. "It's been hard to get out of bed but easy to climb back in."

    Been there. You're not alone, Zena. There are lots of reasons for depression and it can be a bitch to pull yourself out of. Don't be afraid to seek help if you don't feel yourself getting better. (If you want personal stories I got 'em)

  2. Fight it and don't let it consume you. We have all been there before. I like to get out and breath the fresh air and exercise. It helps to clear my mind and help me find perspective. if help is needed by all means seek it out.

  3. Sometimes it helps to just get it out there. We HAVE all been there at one time or another. Are you a depression eater or non-eater? Hopefully non-eater. This could be your opportunity to lose that final 5. You know I'm always trying to see the silver lining.

    Love you!

  4. My theory on depression is that it's a natural reaction. I know there are probably things that need to be done (going to work, eating, pottying, basic survival stuff), but with all that you've gone through, my thought is that your depression is just your body saying, "I'm tired. I need rest!"

    So listen. Take it easy. Be gentle. And enjoy the Kindle Fire! And when you're ready, you'll move through it. Hugs!

  5. Thanks,everyone. I know everyone goes through these periods but when you're in the middle of one, you feel completely alone and isolated. It's so hard to reach out. And Tex, I am a depression eater. But since I'm sticking to low carb, I'm not sruffing my face with donuts and chocolate.

  6. My condolances for your loss. Wanting to climb into bed and generally be sedentary in your sorrow might just be a sign that you need rest, as Jen said. If the depression is getting in the way of a normal life, don't be afraid to reach out to others for help.